st stephen people are really friendly. :)
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hey guys.. the days have been so busy and tiring lately, i can't seem to blog. but now i decided to get a breather before i resume real life. :) so here i am, and i'm gonna blog about what's happening lately.
first things first, about the title: wala lang. hehe i met two new friends from st stephen. one in our elevator and one in dlsu. th elevator friend was like, "hey, nasa kumon ka nung saturday diba?" suddenly and i was taken aback cuz 1) how did he know??? and 2) i wouldn't really tell anyone whom i don't know if i knew that he went to hong kong or s&r or something. so i just nodded a bit and he was all, "ah, ikaw nga yun. andun din ako e." and then i didn't know what what to say but he seemed to be expecting me to remember him but i didn't, so i just said, "ahh. talaga? cool naman. :)" and then the elevator dinged 4th floor, and he was all "sige, bye!" and so i said "bye" and he alighted from the elevator. and the dlsu friend i met from the contest yesterday. we were sitting next each other in the elims. i smiled at her a bit, and she said "hi, anong name mo?" and there the conversation started. we talked about ateneo, ajss (she attended it), our schools, chinese teachers' nicknames, twilight (how it sucks), etc. it was nice. she was nice. too bad the contest had to start about twenty minutes after. and then after the elims, we didn't get to talk anymore cuz i hung out with the other uno people and she hung out with her st stephen friends.
next subject: my emo phase. i really don't have a valid reason, only that i was down because of the honors thing. also, i guess the pressure's gotten into me. regarding the ajss, i sometimes feel like the underdog, you know? i can see it in that guy's pimple infested face. i know that i'm better than that and than him. but.. i guess as well as any other person, i have my insecurities. so, i'm sorry for making you guys have to put up with me. but don't worry, i think i'm pretty much back to normal now. i guess i just needed to get this off my chest, which i did. a friend and i sorta talked about it. :)
another reason is that i guess i was feeling lately that everything i do is wrong. every mistake feels like daggers. i don't blame anyone but myself. i don't know. but they say mistakes happen for a reason, if not only to learn from them. so.. i'm hoping i'll get over them.
yet another reason would be that i felt lonely and unloved. i felt empty and uninspired. life seemed so bland and dull, and nothing new was happening. sometimes i even wondered why i bothered getting out of bed.
then i asked myself, what happened to me? nothing has changed, really. or was it i who have changed? no, nothing's really changed. i just needed something to live for. i realize that's why i bother getting up in the morning. a part of me knew--just knew, that i was looking for something.
last and the most unavoidable topic today: cheating. we've all heard about how the fourth year people actually carved the desks with answers just to cheat in their exams. at first i thought that they were stupid to cheat and all, but then i realize their reason might not be so different from one of the reasons i was emo-ing about.
they're the graduating batch. they probably were pressured to do good in their test. yes, they should have studied. a friend says that maybe they super don't understand the lessons, that they have no motivation to study, so they resort to cheating. i told him maybe they should ask their teachers about their lessons. he said some teachers don't tolerate questions at all. so.. is it the teachers' fault? maybe they contributed to the factors which led to the students' cheating. although, i don't get the chinese class cheating thing. because, if they passed in their english classes, i don't think chinese classes would be a problem anymore. but then again, i guess it wouldn't hurt to graduate from both english and chinese classes..
somebody from the student government got somehow tangled with this. he helped his friend try to detach one of the desks, see. he said he just brought a tool. he was suspended, and he might be kicked from his position. assuming that what he said was the only thing he did--bringing the screwdriver, i vote he stay in his position, but still he be suspended. because honestly, if i were in his shoes, i'd do the same thing for my friend. because that's what friends do. friends help friends, even if what they're doing is crazy.
but to tell the truth, i think this cheating thing wouldn't be that a big thing if they hadn't carved their cheats onto the tables. (they were even trying to detach one of the chairs from the align-thingy at the bottom right side of a column of chairs to replace one of the chairs they've already ruined.) only seven people were suspended, and that isn't even half of the people who got suspended in dichi's batch. but i don't know, a teacher says there are gonna be more soon. so let's just keep our fingers crossed.
first things first, about the title: wala lang. hehe i met two new friends from st stephen. one in our elevator and one in dlsu. th elevator friend was like, "hey, nasa kumon ka nung saturday diba?" suddenly and i was taken aback cuz 1) how did he know??? and 2) i wouldn't really tell anyone whom i don't know if i knew that he went to hong kong or s&r or something. so i just nodded a bit and he was all, "ah, ikaw nga yun. andun din ako e." and then i didn't know what what to say but he seemed to be expecting me to remember him but i didn't, so i just said, "ahh. talaga? cool naman. :)" and then the elevator dinged 4th floor, and he was all "sige, bye!" and so i said "bye" and he alighted from the elevator. and the dlsu friend i met from the contest yesterday. we were sitting next each other in the elims. i smiled at her a bit, and she said "hi, anong name mo?" and there the conversation started. we talked about ateneo, ajss (she attended it), our schools, chinese teachers' nicknames, twilight (how it sucks), etc. it was nice. she was nice. too bad the contest had to start about twenty minutes after. and then after the elims, we didn't get to talk anymore cuz i hung out with the other uno people and she hung out with her st stephen friends.
next subject: my emo phase. i really don't have a valid reason, only that i was down because of the honors thing. also, i guess the pressure's gotten into me. regarding the ajss, i sometimes feel like the underdog, you know? i can see it in that guy's pimple infested face. i know that i'm better than that and than him. but.. i guess as well as any other person, i have my insecurities. so, i'm sorry for making you guys have to put up with me. but don't worry, i think i'm pretty much back to normal now. i guess i just needed to get this off my chest, which i did. a friend and i sorta talked about it. :)
another reason is that i guess i was feeling lately that everything i do is wrong. every mistake feels like daggers. i don't blame anyone but myself. i don't know. but they say mistakes happen for a reason, if not only to learn from them. so.. i'm hoping i'll get over them.
yet another reason would be that i felt lonely and unloved. i felt empty and uninspired. life seemed so bland and dull, and nothing new was happening. sometimes i even wondered why i bothered getting out of bed.
then i asked myself, what happened to me? nothing has changed, really. or was it i who have changed? no, nothing's really changed. i just needed something to live for. i realize that's why i bother getting up in the morning. a part of me knew--just knew, that i was looking for something.
last and the most unavoidable topic today: cheating. we've all heard about how the fourth year people actually carved the desks with answers just to cheat in their exams. at first i thought that they were stupid to cheat and all, but then i realize their reason might not be so different from one of the reasons i was emo-ing about.
they're the graduating batch. they probably were pressured to do good in their test. yes, they should have studied. a friend says that maybe they super don't understand the lessons, that they have no motivation to study, so they resort to cheating. i told him maybe they should ask their teachers about their lessons. he said some teachers don't tolerate questions at all. so.. is it the teachers' fault? maybe they contributed to the factors which led to the students' cheating. although, i don't get the chinese class cheating thing. because, if they passed in their english classes, i don't think chinese classes would be a problem anymore. but then again, i guess it wouldn't hurt to graduate from both english and chinese classes..
somebody from the student government got somehow tangled with this. he helped his friend try to detach one of the desks, see. he said he just brought a tool. he was suspended, and he might be kicked from his position. assuming that what he said was the only thing he did--bringing the screwdriver, i vote he stay in his position, but still he be suspended. because honestly, if i were in his shoes, i'd do the same thing for my friend. because that's what friends do. friends help friends, even if what they're doing is crazy.
but to tell the truth, i think this cheating thing wouldn't be that a big thing if they hadn't carved their cheats onto the tables. (they were even trying to detach one of the chairs from the align-thingy at the bottom right side of a column of chairs to replace one of the chairs they've already ruined.) only seven people were suspended, and that isn't even half of the people who got suspended in dichi's batch. but i don't know, a teacher says there are gonna be more soon. so let's just keep our fingers crossed.
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